78. Saint Barbara
Get out of your minds!
Saint Barbara is here. Enters the room with her gentle nature, illuminates it from her heart. Welcomes and touches your hearts.
It had been dark times that you ascribe to me, as so often on this planet, in human history. And yet I managed to hold on to my inner light in the darkness. To wear it. To be carried outside.
This is the secret of God's connection: to recognize, to guard, to nourish the light in oneself - no matter what happens or does not happen around it. It takes a lot of practice and trust to keep returning to this point. The resistance is often great and the emotions are intense. They in particular often threaten to take us with them, to pull us down, to behave in an uncontrolled manner.
That's when steadfastness is needed. Trust. In ourselves, in our own power - in God in us. Into the light within us.
Sometimes the flow of life slows down. Makes us run aground. Collision with seemingly insurmountable stones, obstacles of all kinds. Even then it's a matter of trust. For the flow of life ALWAYS carries us SO WE CONFIDENCE.
However, it can take other ways than planned if we want to force something, force OUR WAY. Then things can literally go wrong and we, our little ship of life, capsize.
And yet, we can never fall deeper than into His, into God's hand. In the hand of the Almighty, almighty God. He holds us, ALWAYS. On the darkest night, in the shallowest, deepest, blackest water. He is there - even if we feel lost, screaming and complaining.
What to do in such times of need? The grievances, internally and externally?
Uncouple yourselves from thinking. From all-round thinking. From circling around what is. Get rid of your thoughts - because they lead to emotions, to often violent and uncontrollable emotions. And MUCH pain.
How to turn off the thought carousel, you ask?
Breathing.
Breathing.
Connect yourselves to your breath.
On - off. On - off.
Force your thoughts, your mind, to breathe again and again.
On - off. On - off. On - off.
Find a place outside where you feel safe and at home. Whether in the forest, in a park, under a bush or somewhere where you feel comfortable at home. Consciously calm down, concentrate on your breath. And then find the place in your INSIDE that is your home.
Feel -
Tears may flow - tears cleanse the soul - allow the advancement to your being, your core. Welcome them - and then let them go again in gratitude.
Be yourselves your teachers, your consolation. Be and find your strength in yourself - your spilled power waiting to be found and lifted. You will find them, for sure! Familiar!
And so even in the deepest winter of feelings, of chaos, my Barbara branch will blossom, be certain.
It is never hopeless, even if it seems so! Often it is a question of perspective, of focus, which must change. That takes time sometimes. And maturing. Give yourselves and life this time. NOW.
In deep love and connectedness
Your Barbara of the Cross of Christ
Om Shanti Om
Om Namah Shivaya
Amen Mister Tsebaoth